just jump in

In the last couple of months I've had significant changes occur in my life. My best friend is no longer my best friend. The fact that this important relationship has changed so severely has been even harder because we work for the same company. So, I've been dealing with that. Someone else very close to me just moved here for a job and she's living with me. I really like living by myself, but I also really like having half the bills paid by someone else every month. Then, on top of that, two of my married friends moved to the area for a job. It's weird that this little circle of friends lived in the same place for two years, then we all moved away, and now we're all back in the same area for different jobs. Of all the places in this country to move to, we ended up in the same place. Only now, we've all changed. And while we're still great friends, and I feel lucky to have them so close, it's different now.

I've been in this little tourist town since August and I'm still struggling to make it feel like home. The job's great, the house is great, it just doesn't feel like I belong yet. I guess that's why I'm doing this. It's a place to talk about things I don't really talk about in my everyday life. I've never kept a journal, but now I'm gonna try. Wish me luck. :)